It’s been slightly over six months since my last post.
To whomever has been checking this blog regularly in that quiet period, thank you.
There are a lot of reasons that I’ve quit writing. The new job that I mentioned back in January has certainly has kept me busier than I expected. The narcissism that is all social media and personal blogging has held me back. The uncertainty in what value I can bring to an already cluttered internet has also stopped me.
But, I haven’t shut this blog down for a reason. I’m not quite sure what that reason is.
In the back of my mind, I’m always thinking about writing, wanting to write, wishing my writing was better and, of course, I online stalk other writers who I admire. But one question I keep asking myself is, does blogging even count as writing? And, if it does, am I providing any real insights, help, or value to others?
Full disclosure, deep down inside me, I have always hoped to write a book. Of course, I wrote a children’s book that lives on my laptop. But, I mean, I want to write a novel. A book that women can identify with, based on my limited life experience, only funnier and fictional. If I keep blogging, I’m at least practicing writing … but does it get me any closer to a book? Not so far. However, during my six month hiatus from blogging, I haven’t written one word. Not in a journal, not in a draft for a novel, nothing at all.
So, does blogging get me closer to a book? Unanswered.
The marketer in me asks, what do I hope to achieve by blogging? (What is the ROI?) Is it an image? Is this simply a platform to share what I’m proud of and to shape a picture of me in your mind? Maybe. But, is it real? Am I really the person I try to be online? A lot of studies suggest that few (and more likely none) of us really share who we are on Facebook or any social sharing platform. So, if I’m blogging about only my best self, does that elevate my writing, move my career forward, or make me a better mom? Does creating an image help anyone else?
To create value, you must be genuine. You must be passionate. You have to believe in your message. Oh yeah… you must have a message. Without a genuine, passionate perspective on something you’re truly obsessed with, what is your message?
That’s what I keep asking myself.
So, maybe this is a goodbye forever post. Or, maybe this a kick off to shaping whatever it is that I keep thinking I need to share with the world. If another post follows this one, it may be different than all those that came before it.